That Kiss In The Rain :)

I've always wanted that romantic kiss in the rain and I finally got it in a very...perfect way :)


Once when it started raining heavily and it was midnight, i jumped up the sofa grabbed the hands of my love and ran out of the house still holding on to him, it was amazing we were just having a laugh, Rain pouring down on my face, I could feel every drop of rain. He touched me softly, I could see the love in his beautiful eyes. He took his both hand and put it on my cheeks, they were warm and comforting. I didn't move, I didn't smile all I did was stand there and looking into his eyes.

Water was dripping down his hair, his eye lashes wet. I put my hand on his waist, it didn't matter that we were getting wet. He lean over, as water came down his lips touched mine and nothing seems to be around us. The kiss was soft, naive, lovely, passionate and many more feeling that can't be explain. Just the sense of him made me want to love him more.

As we stop kissing he looked into my eyes , he held my hand and smiled.

“I love You” he said softly his voice was deep, I didn't answer him. I just wanted to look into his eyes and get lost in it, they made me want to be with him forever. Everything about him made me want him more. The darkness seems to grow but it didn't matter we didn't move even an inch. He moves again and gives me another passionate kiss, as he kiss I can feel the heavens airs hitting my face and my life turning colorful :)

It has to seem like a spur of the moment thing- you cant plan it with one another or it loses that special feeling...:D 

My Love....

There are things in life that are inevitable; I am powerless to control them. The Sun will rise and set, the tide will come in and go out, the seasons will change, the birds will fly South for the winter and return in the spring, and the caterpiller will transform itself into a butterfly. Somehow, I feel reassured by this because many other things in life are so transient - so momentary.
darling, from the moment we met, I knew that our friendship would develop into something lasting and precious, just as I am sure that the caterpiller will one day become a butterfly.
darling, I believe that our love is blessed by Allah. It is a union of two spirits destined for everlasting happiness. Thus, you have truly become the star of my life which brings me light in this dark world, and warmth when I need it. You offer me the promise of renewal, the joy of living, the peace of mind that comes from sharing and caring, and that shoulder to lean on in times of stress. You are my Swallow from Capistrano - my precious, I will cherish you and love you forever.
     Just as a poet needs inspiration to write a masterpiece
                 I need you ...
     Just as an artist needs a subject for his work of art,
                 I need you ...
     Just as a teacher needs a pupil to mold into greatness,
                I need you ...
     Just as a composer needs a theme to create a timeless melody,
               I need you ...
     For without you, my life would be empty of all inspiration.  There will be no work of art for me to gaze at; no person of greatness before me; no timeless melody to listen to.  My life will exist in shades of gray instead of vibrant colors, and I will be less than whole.
     In the past, the proper words have escaped me, and my innermost feelings have been kept locked away in the depths of my heart.  No more - for through this letter, I proclaim to you, Darling my undying love and eternal devotion.......

I Wanna Be Your Girl

I wanna be the girl you wake up beside every morning, I wanna be the girl you hold hands with every time we walk in the park,I wanna be the girl you answer the phone to at 3am In the morning, I wanna be the girl you tell all your secrets to,I wanna be the girl you hold tight, I wanna be the girl you sing to, I wanna be the girl you write love notes too,

I wanna be oh so close to you....

I wanna give you my love,I wanna show you I careI wanna show I’ll be there,I wanna kiss you In the pouring rain,I wanna hug you in the icy snow,I wanna never let you go,I wanna make sure no one ever hurts you,And I wanna help you love me in return
And well I just want you to know I love you,I love you,I love and I will never ever let you go................ Because I wanna be your girl.....

People who come in to ur life......

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. 

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually
to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide
you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our
need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done....
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. 
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because
your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Be lieve it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, 

love the person and put what you have
learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you 

were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

I Dont Want To Fall In Love.... With You !!!

Why do you keep staring at me?

You think that I can not see.I know what you are trying to do,Wait- does that mean I like you too?In everything I do, you always tease,Not exactly leaving me at ease.Although, you are very funny,You would always make my day happy.When you laugh, I can ' t help but giggle myself,It makes me feel good or happy, I can ' t exactly tell.When you look back at me with those eyes,Somehow you ' ve got me so tranced, so hypnotized.I wish I would just look away,Or else I won ' t be able to explain why, nothing to say.I have these two voices inside of me,The ones that keep talking, not setting me free.I don ' t know what to do,I can ' t fall in love with you.But then, how do I feel?In any moment, my heart you will steal.I know that these feelings are forbidden,So all I can do now is keep them hidden.But my heart does not want to do that,to ignore you, I simply can ' t.Oh, but maybe you can help me,Maybe you can help set me free.So, tell me now, what should I do?So that I won ' t fall in love with you.....

Three Of My Fav Hindi Songs :D

Though Im A Fan of  English Songs I Jst Love HIndi Songs Cos Of the Awesome Lyrics n The Emotions in them :) n these 3 songs i never get fed up no matter how much i play them ! Enjoy 

You Are Still The One !

After all our time together

After all the up’s and downs

I still believe this is forever

Without a doubt

In your arms I still find comfort

In your smile I still find peace

For me there is no other

No matter what time may bring

In the memories we’ve created

There’s a magic in the past

For better or worse

I wouldn’t take one second back

The hard times made us stronger

The sweetest of times made us lovers

All that came before

And everything that follows

Made you my greatest friend

When I need a shoulder to lean on

When I need an ear to bend

It was you I could turn to

It was you who would help me

To find myself again

After all this time

I find peacefulness

Knowing, believing it’s still love,

You’re still the one,

You’ll always be the one....And now, as I live in this moment, Reflecting on the past and looking ahead I want you to know that after all this time What I find most amazing and inspiring….is you :D

Im Sorry !!!

I apology those for whom i hurt please forgive me and let go of the past it takes great time to build up the state of mind and the awareness of the self. i know i was being …soulless!!!!

sometime it hurts to bad just to look at the wrong path i took and how i interacted with the world as a whole.

i ignored the spiritual growth, i lived up to my intellectual standards regardless how empty i felt.

I had nothing at the core. i peeled all the multilayers protection of my vulnerable central system.

I learned nothing of the past. cos i ignored the fact that human lives involving with higher realms beside facts and trivialities.

i saw signs but i thought they were commonsense. And i learned it the hard way that things arent as they seem.

the "look good but no depth fundamental self" collapsed to replace by a whole new system – a brand new me. with full awareness of my identity and purposes in life. I always knew im a good person, i just happened to realize something lacking in me. Something important, something hard to substitue. Its a self. its the identity that i longed to look for in my whole life. I researched, i read, i did experiment to test out at what extent the real me will show up.

Well. I succeeded. Up till now. im still wondering..what made me do all these useless deeds? is it because the hatred from the childhood? or the resentment for the rest of human race? why i spent too much effort to continuously find for the faith that i lack? that is the faith in myself, the hope that i will wake up someday finding happiness along the way. As i always felt empty deep down in my soul, It perhaps went travelling some where i guess..lol. Or because it gave up on me? i had the impression that i would be happy as i could find the last piece of my soul. I tried to executed the process in a scientific manner. 

Its alright. dont take things for granted from now.

Be happy.

I feel like growing. And i know i will committ myself to a much higher forces - i put my faith in  the hand of God as i know now man will not live by bread alone. I of course will continue to fight the battles til the end of the Judgment Day. I am content.

Thank you for those who still support and bet ur hope in me lol.

I will survive.

And trust me. I will be good.  

Sssh Please!

For long, I thought that i’m smart enough to handle all relationships. I never wanna make anyone disappointed or feel annoyed talking with me. On the other hand, I dun wanna make me feel irritated either.

But there’s some stupid thing that makes me very upset. Something relates to the corner of myself. Stupid me. I thought I could share some dark side of my life with someone, a bit. I thought they would keep it as a secret box between me and them. I thought I could lean on them when I am deep down in depression, confusion, worry….

Is it too hard for them just to listen to me then stop shouting out loud that i have resorted to them? Is it too hard for them just to keep silence? Just to be with me in the shade of life. Just not to let the whole world know that I need them sometime.

Guys, they r just so selfish. They always want to "publicize" things I told them, things i share with them, things that I admitted I couldn’t hold back, couldn’t control.

They wanna act out as if they r the master. Excuse me! You don’t understand any bit of myself. However, I know it. I know why they wanna be the master of the game. I beg your pardon, mr. big-shot master, take a look at urself. Don’t try to show ur care to me like a dog barking out loud.

Anyway, I never lose faith to love, to true friendship, to my belief in human emotion. I just need to be more careful.....

My Wishes For You !!

"IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO REACH FOR A STAR AND PLUCK IT OUT OF THE SKY"

BUT IF YOU WANTED ONE, I WOULD NEVERTHELESS GIVE IT A TRY

THERE'S NOT A THING I WOULDN'T ATTEMPT TO DO

IF THE END RESULT PLEASED YOU

I WOULD WISH FOR YOU, EYES THAT SEE ONLY THE TRUTH

I WOULD WISH FOR YOU LOVE THAT NEVER NEEDS PROOF

I WISH FOR YOU A HEART THAT NEVER ACHES

I WISH FOR YOU A HEART THAT NEVER BREAKS

I WISH FOR YOU COUNTLESS MOMENTS FULL OF HOPE, PROMISE AND SWEET DREAMS

I WISH FOR YOU HAPPINESS BURSTING AT THE SEAMS

I WISH FOR  YOU TEARS, BUT ONLY OF JOY

I WISH FOR YOU THE INNOCENCE OF YOUR CHILDHOOD WHEN YOU WERE COY

I WISH FOR YOU RAINBOWS TO WASH AWAY YOUR PAIN

I WISH FOR YOU CLEANSING DROPS OF GENTLE RAIN

I PRAY TO THE FORCES ABOVE TO ALWAYS PROTECT YOU

I PRAY THAT NOTHING YOU DESIRE WILL EVER REJECT YOU

I HOPE TENDERNESS WILL FOREVER SURROUND YOU

I HOPE THE MAGIC OF LOVE WILL NEVER CEASE TO ASTOUND YOU

I WISH YOU THE ASSURANCE OF A FUTURE THAT SHINES BRIGHT

I WISH YOU EVERYTHING YOU DESIRE WITH ALL MY MIGHT

I WISH YOU THE PATH THAT ALWAYS LEADS TO RIGHT

I WISH YOU IMMUNITY FROM THE RAVAGES OF LIFE

I WISH FOR YOU THE LEAST AMOUNT OF STRIFE

I  WISH FOR YOU A HEART OH SO TRUE

I PROMISE TO ERASE YOUR BLUE

AS PROMISED, AS LONG AS YOU LIVE

AS PROMISED, I FOREVER WILL GIVE

FROM ME THERE WILL NEVER BE ANY REASON FOR AMENDS

AND I'LL MAKE SURE, FOR YOU, THIS POEM NEVER ENDS !!!!

CAUSE FOR ME YOUR HAPPINESS COMES FIRST :)

Why I Let Him Hurt Me So Much........

They asked me if I kissed him. I told them yes. They asked if I regretted it. I told them no. They
asked me if I regretted falling for him. I told them no. They askd me how I cud have ever liked
him. I replied: I don't regret any of my feelings or things I did with him, because when I look at
him I see something different than what everyone else can see. When I'm with him I feel a feeling
that no one or being anywhere else can giv me.Wen I kissed him,my world around me melted. Wen he held me in his arms and rested his head on mine, I forgot everything but my world that 
was holding me.Even though all of u may see somethin in him that is so horrible, all I see is all the
positive, and special moments that he ever shared with me...

I'm tryin really hard not to cry over him, because every tear is just one more reminder that I
don't know how to let him go.It's only after someone is gone do u realize how much u miss them..they are always tellin me to move on, to givup. But y? y shud I? They don't see him the way that I see him. They don't look into his eyes n see the world.y wud they understand? They can't possibly imagine what it means to look at a guy ,n see all their hopes n dreams come true. I wish for once, just once, they cud walk a mile in my shoes. But they wudn't need to walk that far, they wud just take one step n suddenly, they wud take back every bit of 'gettin over him' advice they had ever given me n realize he is my life, he was meant for me,n that moving on or givin up is simply not an option.u never really stop lovin someone. u just learn to try to live without them.......

I really think there's a reason that I like him so much. Like somethin is telling me not to let him go. Every time I follow my heart... it leads me to him. I mean... what other explanation is there. y is it that he is all I can think about? y is it that no matter how upset I am... I see him n I can't help but smile? y is it that when he smiles at me...

I get that feeling in my stomach? n even wen he'd broken my heart,n hurt me as much as anyone could ever hurt me... wen he left me... yesI hated him... y then did I still feel those same feelings?

Answer me that, n then I'll tell u why I let him hurt me so much...............

My Fairytale Romance

If  Im  Cinderella

Or I would like to be

Will it be possible for me to find my prince charming in you !!

If Im Jasmine

Would you say " So Princess, please be mine , A whole new world I'll show you

A world of love divine "

My favorite is Tinkerbell

So You Can be Peter Pan, Together we can fly away

Off to Neverland

And if Im Sleeping Beauty

Then U Can be the one, To kiss My  lips, open My eyes

And fill My life with sun

And if You are the Beast

And My name was Bell, know that you can  count on me

To free you from the spell

And if U are Prince Eric

Would you take me as your Ariel to show 

A love deeper than the sea

Just like a Disney tale

Filled all with love and laughter, You and I will be together

Happily ever after

So tell me your desires

I'll make your dreams come true

A life of happiness

Prince, I'll share with you

Be my Prince

And your Princess I will be

Together we can live

Our own Disney story.....

I Am Only Me :)

I am only me, that is all that I can be

No more, no less, don’t second guess.

I love, I laugh, I live and cry,

I’ve wished at times, that I could die

Some days I’m funny, others I’m not,

sometimes I’m in overdrive and can’t stop

I am a loyal and honest friend,

You know that I’ll be there until the end...

I am a romantic, sensual, and passionate too,

to the love of my life, I’ll share this with you

I can be sweet and shy or sassy and bold,

I’m quite a handful, or so I’ve been told

I am not perfect, I do have my faults,

like when I get scared I put up high walls

Or I’m not as forgiving, as I’d sometimes like to be,

because when I hurt, I hurt deeply

My logic is all my own, at times misunderstood,

because I don’t always do things for my own good

I have many facets, like a diamond you see…

I am only me !!!